Today I had a great time, I got to see the love of my life. Jordan Marie is my salvation. She brings me a little higher every time I see her. She makes me want to donate to charity and help orphans. I love her more than air more than anything really. I want to be in one of those relationships people envy.

       Just now my sister and my girlfriend had a verbal altercation. Joyzie and Jordy do not exactly get along and they are going to probably never get along. I can see it now her and Joyzie will never get along. Jordy and her are in the same grade so I guess that makes them similar in their ways of arguing. BULLHEADED!

       I love Jordy sooo much I really hope that the two of them figure things out.

       My day was excellent. I spent it with Jordy her and her amazing self. I may seem like I am obsessed but I'm really not. She is the center of my world is all and she is really who this blog is about cause she is the center of my day. I really wish that she was here with me.

       Other things in my life are just to complicated to even deal with. My mom rarely answers my calls and when she does we only talk about things in passing we never really talk like we used to. My mom still has custody of Lane which still bothers me. Lane is my baby sister and I don't want her growing up with the same influences from my mom that I did. The world is a bad enough place I don't need Lane growing up to experience that so soon. I just hope that she can get out of homer and do something with herself. I know she has it in her.

       Sis still hates me as well as BZ her boyfriend. Sis is my older sister she just turned 19 and she thinks she knows everything. I can't stand to be in the same room as her or her boyfriend who is from suburbia. That boy wouldn't know hard times and depression if it slapped him in the face. I honestly do not care for the boy and I do not believe him and Sis will last to much longer. I don't think that they are in love like Jordy and I. I absolutely adore Jordy. BZ doesn't even enjoy my sister the way he should.

     My dad is still like a block of ice and has nearly nothing to say to me. He tells me what he thinks I need to hear but here but he doesn't ever tell me the truth. He is just as conniving as everyone in my life except for Jordan. He is a hypocrite. He tells me no one can control certain things yet those are the things he tries to control. I love my dad but damn is he controlling.